July 10 2021

 I'm apathetic about typing anything tonight.   I will Stoicly bear my Apathy until the time is done.  I wanted there to be a happy ending to 2984, but of course there wasnt one.  Learn to check what there is on the label before putting it in the cart.  That keeps happening to me.  Sad old women,  probably long gone.  I am just a sad old man.  It is not your place to check when I go to work.  I took piano lessons, but I got upset with the Teacher.  I made her sad.  I am sorry.  Maybe there isn't a heaven for dogs and cats.  there is no way to know. no know now.   Beatles Yellow Submarine.  Who knows what is happening out of sight?  We can only imagine.  Imagination is important, but only if you do  something with it.  You might need to get Excel, but it might be expensive.  I grind my teeth away.  Eventually they will be gone.  What w will I do then?  Eat mush?  puray everything?  Mush with Ketsup, GodDamnn it.  Me just wlking around the streets of Portland like a lunatic.  I wish i had had enough money t mae Jere life right. I did what I could.  He turned out alright.  Im sure the Congressersons are busy with all sorts of things.  Half the time theyhave to spend their time fundraising.

  sto·ic

a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feelings or complaining.

ap·a·thy

lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.

"widespread apathy among students"

A Stoic is wiling and able to bear suffering

An Apathetic person just doesn't care about things

Be a mindful Christian

Here is a technique that I use to get myself motivated when I don't feel like doing anything:

Let's say I am lying in bed

I close my eyes and say to myself 

"Im not going to do this, but if I were going to do it I'd

push up

sit up 

stand up"

Usually at this point I start walking toward a goal

You can do a similar thing if you are sitting in a chair and don't feel like getting going.

Try i sometime and see

It has worked for me every time