June 13 d2021

 I can't think of anything to write I feel pretty empty right now. I didn't call the 

friendship line today; I never have much to say because I don't do much during the day. I made out a list of things I could do, but I never do them. I haven't even written anythng on 

facebook.  Silence is Golden. am beginng to enjoy silence more and more.  I need to fill my time with things.  I will sink into depression if I dont.  If I'm smart enough to do this... what was I going to say?  Music hath charms. I'm glad I've got You

Tube so I can listen to music.  I never did get rich. I will be lucky if I get these damn credit cards paid off.  It's nothing but a distraction.  Bad breath and body oder. I wake up in the middle of the night. I don't know why. I stay up for awhile and then go back to bed. I will use my self hypnosis tape to get myself to stop smoking again. It worked for two months before. It shoud work again Sometimes. you have to lie I barely have enough money to make it through. It is better to wear out than it is to rust. SEan spends his time in hs room unless he is at work.  You are the last person I would listen to. The Police would have just arrested him and beat him up or something.